Tired

I wonder why and how. Everyone has their strength and limited.


I found my limited but where is my strength?





Alright, I just mumbling right here, Study make life worst. Always true.


Ciao!

Cut it off

Some friendship; cut if off

some relationship; cut it off

some memories; cut it off.

Make your life easier but not harder.




Can I cut offf my exam period?!

曾经

朋友


一段不知哪来的缘份把我和你牵起，


也不知几时它离开了。


你曾经是我生命的点明灯，照亮了我的人生。


女孩因为这段自认为的姻缘而成熟了，也因为它的难忘让女生盲目的工作。


你把我打照成一只打不死的蟑螂，一只曾经处处可怜的绵羊。


今天的我，真的要感谢你。



我们俩随着自己的感觉各自飞翔，


偶尔会看看天空希望大家都还好。


偶尔会温馨的笑着问自己：不知他是否还想着我。。。



我们俩都开始寻找自己的靠岸，


因为你的不说，让我知道我因该找个会说的。


因为你的太成熟， 让我知道找个刚刚好的就好。


因为你的不在乎，让我知道该找个很在乎我的。


女孩就因为男孩的不爱，而出发去寻找真爱，哪怕她也曾经认为她已经寻找到了。


因为缘份的关系，我们曾经尝试了又尝试。


我懂你的爱，然而你不接受你对我的爱。

你的过渡自责与不善于处理感情事让这段感情跌跌失失到了终点。



偶尔你还是会出现在我的脑海中，可是我总是微笑的对自己说：还有更好的。



忘记其实比想像中困难。  


我现在不渴求忘记，只可求放下，我知道我会做得到。



其实，我俩无论到了几远，总是会有条透明线牵着我们。


我们都知道。


我们一同分享我们的喜怒哀乐。


我们一同微笑。


我们各自都可以减断这条多余的缘分，然而不舍却当中作祟。



哪怕有一天我们不再联络了，时间就成了透明的尖刀把这份缘份给隔 了。


哪怕当你看到这篇文章时， 我已寻找到真爱了。

Busy

Hey guys! Long time no update! So sorry about that!


So How is everyone? (looks like I got a lots of fan, even though I know it's only few)


But better than nothing! Alright! let me explain about my recent life.


School life, Work life, Family Life, Dogs owner's life!


Yup! describe finished! That is my life right now.


I'm just busy til I've nothing much to update because my brain couldn't remember what I did and what did happened. So yea, So sorry! Nothing much you can read and know.


Or maybe the Special things has become Normal things for me right now, so I don't take it toooo seriously.


Perhaps I become more mature? Olala! I'm praising myself :D Tee Hee! and this show that I'm still a kido!


ANYWAY, wish you guys have a good weekend and will be back to you guys soon :D

昨晚

昨晚，我与一班疯子去庆祝其中一位疯子的生日派对。


我们去了SETIA WALK 里的其中一件酒吧-- SECTOR SEVEN。


环境优美，真的是完美。


我们的飞机王喝不到两杯便倒下了，----差到-----


而我呢， 喝了好几杯可是还是没有问题。


一切一切都很好，直到上了车准备回家时， 车上播着 悲伤的情歌。



不知道从哪里的感觉，眼泪滑下来了，一滴一滴的，静静的，本来不想惊动我的朋友，可是突然他看出来了，


一句 “ 怎么了？怎么哭了？”


就这样--- 我奔溃了。



我放声大哭， 我很清醒，可是我控制不了自己的情绪。


前所未有的 --- 大哭。



我没有想过那么死要面子的我--- 既然哭得没有了自己。



这次也让我清楚明白， 人是有情绪的，偶尔不控制它不一定是坏事。


至少，我真的很舒服了。


当然，我清楚知道--他们是我值得信任的朋友。



谢了。。。 一切。。。  句号




要不是昨天，我不知道，你对我还是那么大的影响。

学业，爱情。。   家庭。。。    你们可以乖一点吗？？

我不想再流泪了。

因为我相信

越是忍住泪水，越会变成幸福的良药

最好的

每个人都希望得到一定的回报当付出了。


对爱情， 友情，亲情。


就像做生意一样，没人想血本无归。。。


对人，有的你会不想理会，有的你会想要假装，有的你甚至就是讨厌。


你不可能被全世界的人爱，也不可能爱上全世界的人。


总有的人和你没有缘分。


总有的人和你不同世界。



我们憎恨不会珍惜我们的人，可是每个人都会有不珍惜的人。


这就是人生，就像圈圈一样，每个人都犯同样的错误。


 就像A珍惜B， B珍惜C， C珍惜A一样。


就是因为这样，我们的人生才没有那么的悲惨。


就算不被珍惜可是还是有被珍惜的时候。



我们往往都会很悲当我们的不到我们要的东西，


可是现在的我学会了，天真的是很公平的，

当你失去了一样东西，它是真的会还会另一样东西给你。


可能需要你一定的努力和时间，只要相信，它对你会待遇不薄。





我失去了一些，我会期望与相信将来的我会更美好，更加知道我需要些什么，更加让我知道如何去珍惜。



对于某人，谢谢你让我长大。    有的痛， 会让人成长，谢谢你让我遇到这种痛。

我一直认为是我的疏忽而让你离开了人间。





我没有删除过你的任何一张照片。



可是，我也没经常去看它。



因为，这种痛从来没有离开过我。



每次想起你，我的眼泪总是留下。




一年半了，你生病的过程紧紧的贴在我脑海，我送你去医院的时候，你那双用尽全力睁开的双眼，让我永远都记得。   真的对不起， 对不起啊！

Not to promote, but this is the real idol

Who is your idol?

What he did?

and how successful he is?


=) No offence. But try to read this.  No one would sacrifice so much for the world.


Not even myself .


He is Doctor Juesatta.


Click Here.


When you have time, read it. I'm sure you will never regret.



对他，我甘拜下风。

Laugh a little more

I'm sick again.

Within a month, it's the second times.


Actually it's not something special but I dislike the feeling seriously.


The painfulness from inside of the body will kill you.


I hate headache and body pain. But before you get ill, this is the process -_-


I curious the reason of getting sick, as in I'm not someone that always get sick easily.


I realized, I'm getting too hard. Work too hard, Study too hard, Play too hard.


My mum scolded me, since I'm so tired from working and studying why still want to hang out.
And I told her : Mum, I'm having holiday, and I'm like busy than during studies period. I couldn't let my whole holiday just went off like this - Work and Study.


So I still do hang out and plan my working time, study time and hang out time as well.


But maybe I'm always get enough rest and suddenly my body couldn't stand the new life of me.


Yes, I choose it. I choose to be busy. I choose not to think too much.


You know, when the brain is tired, it wouldn't function so much and of course it will cure my emotion.


-----------------------------------------


recently there are lots of activities that I had join, For example : Clubbing, my friends help me to celebrate birthday! :)

Woon Yin's farewell.

Khalil's Concert!

Stella's Birthday!

Pahang's Trip!

Okay! That's it ! :)


Hoep you guys have fun!

为了什么

我看见身边的女生越变越美， 越变越有气质。

之前看起来普普通通的，现在总是让人眼前一亮。

我很欣赏改变的人，当然是往好方面的。

不改变的，我也和佩服。 因为，身边的人有的改变得超越我的想像。

人因为环境所改变，人事物，权利，威风都是理由。


我有的朋友在比成绩，有的在比金钱。

想想看，我比什么？  学业我不比人好，每次都那么的刚好。

做工也没比别人来的多。

所以？ 我要死了是吗？

荒唐！

Sick

At last...


It came and meet in this morning.


But I never scare of it.


I still decide to go for work.


Just Push myself harder, why the others can do it, I can't?


Just get Panadol before go to work.

听了这首歌，我哭了。

我真的好想好想告诉他这里所有的内容。

这种种 感觉就像要逼着自己笑着来哭。 

她的MV让我几乎奔溃。。。   

Decision

erm, I'm facing some problems recently which is unnecessary for me.


As readers know, I've feed 2 dogs and both of them are my life.


Just as important as my life.


hmm, I think this problem appeared quite sometimes but I do not know how to face it. -_-



My parent keep asking me to choose either one of them of that I no need to be so tired.

Because I need to face my studies and working at the same time.

When I work, my dogs don't really have anyone to bring them to jog, bath for them.


and sometimes, I did feel fed up because after I came back from work, I'm so tired and still I've to bring them to jog and bath for them. It's a must!


But I never give up before. I do not want to choose either one of them because I going to make them stick together.


The one which stay will suffer as well because it going to miss it's partner.


Both of them are actually a good dogs. At least I wouldn't feel lonely when I'm alone in the house.



Aiks I don't know what to do.


Except for keep quite when my parent told me about this, nothing else I can do.


I'm not the only one who says wanna feed a dog. Sometimes, Money isn't help at all..

when you don't even give a little help... Money is the only thing I can ask from you... Sighhhh...

我眼浅

可能真的是我的问题。


我眼泪总是很容易因为它们而掉落。


因为我真的不明白，也无法明白，为什么就是有人要伤害它们？


为什么它们本来是人类的好朋友，可是还是有人会愿意去伤害它们？


除非它有病，否者我总是不相信它们会攻击人。



它们有生命的，有眼睛，有手脚的。 会帮你看家，会疼你，无论你如何骂它，它都不会反抗你。



它甚至比人类还要来得善良。



可是为什么？    为什么你们就是不可以那那么多一点点的良心和同情心？

你们认为人类真的是世上最伟大的是吗？



我告诉你们，当你伤害它们的那一刹那，你已经没资格被称为 " 人类”。

因为人类最基本的爱心，你已失去。



对我而言，你禽兽都不如！！！！

Break

Everyday working is tiring for everyone.


and It makes me feel a little bit of breathless somehow.


Accountant: The work that I get a little bit complicated than the others, but because I will be learning this in the future so that why.


Kumon: The children are not easy to take care as well, you always need to calm down yourself when talking to them.. anyway, hard to explain.



It wont feel stress but headache.


and some more I need to study, that why, I left one month to study.


Work and Study seriously Tired man.


and I realized I need someone to talk to, but there is no one.


Maybe I just need sometimes,  to seriously make myself recover and stop this stupid attitude.



Today I send a msg to my boss and request for rest. Thanks god, she approved, but somehow I still need to go back for training at 10pm.


The next day I still need to go back accountant office to continue my work, as in there is still ton of papers to let me settle.

Life Life Life.
一直用忙来麻醉自己原来只会让自己变得麻木与愚笨。

原来，我还是。。还没有过去。。。



Today, I helped my mum to clean the house and take care the dogs as well..

Need to study again in night time.




Hope tomorrow... I'm gonna enjoy it...
actually I quite worry... Clubbing isn't my flavor.


Just have a try... maybe...

:(

The application shows that I'm 100% Lucky today.


But I hurt myself today >.<" Aiks...






Still the same.... careless.

I'm wondering as well.

Look back to my previous post and recent post.



wooo, so different.



Did I change?


Where is Jane Lim Sook Yee?




I'm find out that She is scared and she hide somewhere that even I also couldn't find it.



She is tired, or maybe she shouldn't come out anymore.




Thanks for letting me know, recently, This is so not me.


I'm tired of being the weak one but feel so fake for being the strong one.



hmmm... so Am I lost? XD









In this moment I don't care anymore.

Problems come then settle.
about myself- Haven die then is alright..

No time

Start my second jobs, and Seriously I've no extra time  for this time. 

I feel so tired, because both jobs are about NUMBERS.

 

haha! 

Anyway, I enjoy my life right now. 

and my so called first time clubbing date is fixed and it's going to be success! :D Hell yea!

Let's party rocks!

Humanity

when there is something you never expect happen and it happened, you will feel unlucky.

Unlucky. How to define it? 

1. Subjected to or marked by misfortune.

2. Resulting or likely to result in misfortune; inauspicious.

There are always some UNLUCKY follow us. 

Today is 1st of July,

I don't care whatever shit happened before this, I gonna beat it down.

I don't care how hard it is, I gonna make it.

It's just a process.

I never feel down when I face so many problems recently.

and I settle it successfully.

No matter how hard it is.

The first thing to settle - my emotional.

I realized after I've made my mind clear, I can settle everything smoothly.

and I'm glad for being myself right now.

About the other things that will cause me emotional, I left it.

Because I know what is much more important for me :)

Sorry that I've to resit the paper. But I never complain.

Because I know I can make it.

and I will start my second job start from tomorrow :) 

Kumon: Monday and Thursday 5-11pm.

Accountant: Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday 8.30am-5.30pm.

oh yeah, Next friday I'm having holiday, you know why?

it's 6 of July. :) going to celebrate with my friends :)

 My day is coming.

No matter how bad it is. I gonna change it good.

Life is depend on me, not the others.

:)

People!~ Find me to hang out please! :D :D

In Time

A movie about Time is Money, Money is Time.

Everyone Start their real life when they were 21.

It's automatically pop out on your left hand - THE TIME THAT YOU LEFT FOR SURVIVING.


The time decrease by second.


Day By Day- Time decreasing.

You pay your food by your time that shown on your left hand. Pay everything with your time :)




It's different from our real life nuh, We never know what will happen in the future and how much time we left.

But in this movie, for the poor one, they always need to work hard to maintain their life. Salary = time.

You will get your salary by increasing your time left.


It;s a good movie for me, as always.


Because I realized that I do not know how to be appreciate what I have right now and keep rolling my self in the deep of him.



It's sound so stupid but yes, I'm stilll doing it.


So Jane- Are you awake right now?  




Live Forever or Die trying?


I will try my best to leave you and live forever.

Thanks to her.

I think  Both of us are having the same process, Just that... she went off earlier than me.


Her posts show that she still rolling in the deep of him.

Same as I :)


'' Don't cry because it's over, smile because it's happened ''




It's true. No matter what happened, don't cry- because it's over.


accept it and go through it. 

He loves someone new, so what?  I'm still can shine my way!

People do change ; accept it either.

some people ; be friend ; not even friend. Choose it either.

memories, i fall in love with you but I hate you actually.

"I'm here, Don't worry"

I don't believe it anymore.

Because whoever says it,

LEFT. 

Be positive Jane, stand strong.

顶住啊！ 

Problems

If problems can settle by Formula, I don't mind to fall in love with math.

If the brain can auto turn off when it knew it's owner couldn't stand for the problems, I don't mind to be Robot.


If every scene can be like drama, I don't mind to be actress.

What if?


I'm tired, want to fall in love with math, become a robot which is an actress.

It's so scary

In my life, the worst thing for me is - IT.

It made me feel like dying.

It made me so tired.


No matter how I persuade myself to be alright but still, I'm sad.


I seriously can not stand it anymore.


Yes, must smile smile smile. and I feel so fuckup when seeing my fake smile.


And yet, I still need to smile.



and realized that, I couldn't cry out anymore. SHIT!

\

发觉自己真的憔悴了

I wonder

I trying to be good for everyone. 

You are not the exception.

But I wonder why,

Is it so hard to reply a person?

its okay,  I did what I suppose to do.

You are the one who missed it. 

So, goodbye!

friends

:)

Friends, thank you for being there...

what if?

Thanks for the people who decide to leaving you,

Because of them, You learn to be strong.

even stronger.

The tears you dropped, is the evidence for you TO  must be get up as soon as possible.




I'm emo tonight. Ever since he leave me, I feel that some part of me has gone.



I'm not sad because he has gone.

I'm sad because never knew to protect myself.

and Now, the most deep inside of me bleeding.


I've learn that never ever put someone too important.

I always thought Mr B is the most painful one.

and Now come MR M.

You make me don't even dare to stay at home alone before this.



I'm gonna face it and you gonna get lost !



Hey, I'm enough for this alright?

Where are you?

remember ?


when I'm upset you always told me, " I'm here"


and Where were you now?


I always wanted to find a reason for letting you go.


What he said is right : The one who needed to find a reason is you, not me.




and Forget about that you will be there when I upset.


I just need to get through this process and I will be alright.

Come on

Jane LIM!


Please.. Please recover as soon as possible.

This isn't the life you wish to have now.


He shouldn't pop out in this period.  No, He shouldn't pop out in my life anymore

Get up!

Get Up Jane.!



I'm tired of being emo. Please.... Rescue me.



I'm done of it.

Im tired of tearing.


FUCK IT. FUCK YOU!



it's been a long time I never type FUCK in my blog.


Maybe, It's time to get back my life again.

Get used of it

Life is always unexpected.

Yes, I went into a relationship before this. 

But it never stay long.

and I don't wanna mention about it.

That's nothing I want to keep secret from.

It's nothing special.

But I'm hurt so bad.

So, If you never see me smile.

Please, Try to understand me.

I'm not being cool.

I just need sometimes to be alright.

I'm having exam right now.

I couldn't control my emotional and yet I force myself to.

I couldn't concentrate yet I have to.

so, I just need a hug or maybe a smile from you.

It's more than enough, buddies.

and for you, all the best and have a blast.

Don't worry, This is not the first time for me to face all these shit.

It's just a process and I'll be alright.

See you people, I will be back when  I'm done

Learn from Mistake

I want to get a new life now.

A brand new Me.

A brand new Jane Lim.



No matter how hard it is. I will get through it.

Watch out.

没有必要

你，对我来说，没有影响力。


现在的我们也河水不犯井水，


可是，我对于你以前的态度真的很糟糕。


可是说是，恨之入骨


可能，在某时候，我曾经当过你是朋友，拿出真心来和你做朋友，


过后，你的不理智，不说道理，真的把我给惹毛了。


当你爱上一个人，除了你和她有妈妈生以外，其他人只要是不顺你们的，都被不理智的对待。



保护自己的女人不是这样的方法，你可能在工作上很成功，可是你有看港剧吗？


那种很有钱有势的男人，可是却缺少了礼貌与尊重。



对，你会很有钱，可是你真的真的不要跌倒。



因为我会唱 "fantastic baby" ， 懂它的lyrics 吗？


i wanna dance dance dance dance dance.


对，人就是这样，你站的越高，别人越盼望你跌倒，可是我不是。



我没有盼望你跌倒，我只想看你跌倒的后果，因为，我知道人没有可能永远处于高潮。



我知道有天你会跌倒，可是我想看对你真正的朋友有多少。




想要让自己成功，不只是靠自己，到时候你会发现。


你的态度与行为会让你吃多少苦。




我真的很怀疑，你的头除了往上扬， 你有低头 看过人吗？




除了做生意时，你对别人有几好？






You know what? BOOM SHAKALAKA.   BE alright MR.

it's been awhile

 :) I'm not healthy as usual anymore.

I tried to avoid this problems and persuade myself that I'm healthy . trololo! But, today I realized I'm not seriously.

I can't run as fast as my previous record.

I can't swim like a fish.

I can't play badminton like my previous power.

I love Sports, I enjoy it.

But, seems like I don't have the right to love it anymore?

It's not nice having asthma, it kills my brain cell alots. 

it's not nice, when you almost faint in the toilet.

it's not nice when you can't even breath normally.

you feel like vomit but you can't vomit out. 

gosh, it's suffer me.

我没有资格

只要你愿意付出，幸福自然会来敲门。

一直以来我有在付出。




可是，我得不到肯定。 

恋情；感情。

她的男友不怎么样。

样子我们撇开不说。

他的性格对我而言很糟，真的很糟， 糟透了。

然而，她却认为那很可爱，很迷人，他爱欺负她，她认为那是一种爱的表现。

对，感情的事情就只有那当中的两个人明白。

在我眼中的他再怎么糟糕，她还是那么的爱他。

在我眼中的他再怎样不像男人，她还是认为他很man。

并不是她不理智，只是因为她爱他。

并不是她不清醒，只是她还爱着他。

爱让人宁愿选择沉睡也不愿意保持清醒。

可能外人看的很清楚，也告诉了她。

她其实很明白，很清楚。

可是，她更清楚自已有几爱这位男孩。

再多的道理和理性也得抛开。

可能，他有天会改变。  

可能， 太多的可能。

每个人都希望的到真爱， 寻找一个爱自己和自己也爱的人 不容易。

就算知道会受伤害，还是继续尝试。

对于爱的人，我们可以那么的容忍， 那么的无所谓。

-----

可是对于家人呢？

你是否又有对情人的那份坚持放在家人身上？

对于你的男人/女人，你可以低声下气的和他沟通。

你的家人呢？

你的另一半生气了，你会哄她/他。

那你的家人生气了呢？      （管他们那么多）

不用告诉别人你有几爱你的男人/女人。

一个男人诺疼自己的家人，他再坏也有个极限。

古人说： 最爱你的男人是你爸爸，最爱你的女人是你妈妈。

懂得爱家里人的孩子，更懂得爱别人。

偶尔，我很怕我没时间去珍惜他们。

我很怕还没有做好自己的责任他们就离开。

当家里的人生病了，真的会让我奔溃。

我该怎么做。

Repeat and Repeat.

Life is good yet it's disappointed for sometimes.

I'm tired tonight, had clear off every finance problems tonight.

Well done me, well done my friends. :)

Going to shopping with Friend tomorrow! :) hehehe

No hope ; No disappointment

No hope = No life

But No hope = No disappointment.

Can I choose for having a life which have lots of hopes but no disappointment?

Robot life isn't that bad although it's lifeless.

Life is like a bitch, but make sure that she is beautiful.

yea

seriously

,

life is just like a bitch.

so freaking true.

You hate it but you still have to deal with it.

You have no choice.

the only thing you can do is teach "her" how to make up and make sure that she is a beautiful bitch.

I'm out of your qualification

Friend, we lost contact almost a year.

Suddenly, we keep in touch again.

I give you my heart like seriously.

Just hope that you will appreciate it.

But you just scratch on it by using your knife.

Friend, how could you did that?

Even I know that's the process, we can be a true friend actually.

But you don't want to. Why?

You can just ignore me if you don't feel like to. 

You were so nice previously. Like an angel came from the heaven.

Now, you never act like an angel yet not a devil.

Just like a real human, a pure real realistic human.

I'm too far from your qualification line.

You're too far over my border line.

and, that's our friendship.

Just like LOVE, 

it's gone like no where.

害怕孤单的人，

不习惯孤单的人，

害怕安静的人，

和不喜欢安静的人，




                                                                                                                                      却总是一个人。

有可能我真的不是温柔的女孩。

我不会对每个人都关心。

然而对身边的你却特别的爱护，深怕你受伤害。

有问题第一个你可以找我。

我可能不能给你要的-他的关心

他的爱。

我可能给不到你要的答案

我可能没有办法让你好过一点。

可是，我有一颗心，就算你，他或她一次又一次的把它给捏碎。

可是在爱情上，友情上，看开了。

我的心还能跳动，证明它没有事。

只能说，当你得到我的关心时，我已经让你进入我的世界。

巨蟹座的外壳很硬，可是里边很脆弱。

这是真的。

所以，请不要伤害我，好吗？

钱

你是除了谈钱还是钱的人吗？

原因是什么？

你是生意人？

你没有别的话题？

你想要告诉人家你有多厉害赚钱？

还是你想告诉人你很有远见，可以预知未来？

这一切的一切我无所谓。

大不了，我当听不到。

大不了，我走掉。

再大不了，我离开咯。。 真的没关系。

可是人就是会肚子烂。 我应该在你们这种人开始表演之前离开。

否则，我的肚子就会开始腐烂。

用钱可以买到感情，好，你证明到。

用钱可以践踏穷人，好，你也做得出。

有钱可以让你高高在上，你可别跌倒。

我，还不会赚钱，大不了，就赚到那几百块在暑假的时候。

对，我家并不有钱。

对，我没有很厉害！

可是，你可以让自己有一点的尊严和面子。

不要只是一个外表光鲜的壳子而里边在堆垃圾的废物！

2012 快乐！

嚛嚛嚛嚛

林淑仪又回来了。。


10号要考试了， 感觉要疯 了！！！


已经很久没有写部落格的我，对它越来越生疏。


可能没有任何的动力让我再写下去了吧。


人生我体会的不够多，感情本人目前为止是空白的。


为啥我的前男友数目总会让别人觉得我很容易寻找到男友。 LOL


以前那种不介意失望了再寻找，跌倒再爬起来的精神在爱情里开始消失了。



很累耶 ， 看到人家甜蜜会羡慕， 偶尔会问自己为什么别人那么的幸福。


我很独木，不喜欢新鲜，不喜欢改变，不喜欢突而其来的意外。


我很爱PLAN, 很喜欢吧一切编排的好好。最好就是一切顺顺利利。



                     我偶尔会追求完美，就这样往往都会不欢而散。