Can you believe it?
He told me the truth after I asked on 3rd of July 2020 which is my birthday month.
I thought it is a present but yeah, it is.
His girlfriend pregnant on end of February.
and our stories start on January.
If you wondering what is the story, that is the secret between me and him
But trust me, I'm not a jerk to screw up people on relationship and maybe that is the reason we never get together because I know if during that time I hold on tight, he will be mine today
But trust me, I'm not asking for such relationship
as You can see the outcome, his girlfriend pregnant after he told me he is going to SETTLE everything and get back to me.
So, god shows me what real man is.
I told him to be glad because we stop immediately after we found something is not right or else, today he is the one who going to suffer.
I mean real suffer.
Of course I can ruin him anytime If I want to.
But I decided not to. Because it is pointless, as I believe things happen for a reason.
I do not know why do I fall for him, at first Yes because I think he is a responsible guy but at last when the outcomes is something like drama - I really felt like get cheated.
He had affair with me when he is with her. Actually I'm the real victim and it really makes me suffer.
I do not know how to express myself in this situation because actually deep down inside me hurt as FUCK.
I mean I do not know why am I having such "incident" happened in my life and why him?
But I never regret. Just maybe regret the person to be him as I cannot stop connection only if I quit my current career
and Im not sure as I'm always think of the issue he did to me.
He can told me when he decided to be with his girlfriend on February but instead he drag until July to said.
By the way today is 12th of July 2020.
Alex, thanks for being in my life because actually you teach me a lot of things. because of you I actually make a step further in my studies.
and I learn to be more independent, I booked GSC ticket for you, I waited for almost 2 hours in a mall.
Remember what you like to eat. We went to zouk together, swimming is the best fun we ever had.
and also the marathon when both of us are running towards the destination.
The sparks we went through is irreplaceable
But what happened happened.
No more stories can be found in us.
So let's continue our own story.
Congratulation on your new beginning.
Today is the last day I think of you and stop letting myself to be a bastard.
Emotion kill me hard inside.
Bye.
