Sunday, May 24, 2020

疑惑

最近我好像喜欢上一个男的

可是不确定是不是。

感觉好像是空虚而让我容易喜欢上人

重点是,他没有对我有任何的感觉

为啥那么说?因为他有女朋友哈哈哈哈哈

我最怕最怕的复杂关系

所以我早就把自己退到圈圈外,看着他们。

不打扰,不多说

不用担心,也不暗恋。

因为到我这个年纪已经不能再暗恋。


所以告知自己,不要去想,不要去管

我控制不了的东西我不会去控制也不想去控制

知道自己做对的东西就好了。


曾经的你亲吻着我的额头说:我会给你个交代时,我多么的想奋不顾身 。

可是我知道到最后,我可能会输得很彻底。

现在好好的做朋友也挺好的

我到底怎么了。

Monday, May 4, 2020

Things happened in year 2019

Just found out that I got no post at all during year 2019.

Nah, Its alright. I believe I will never forget what I went thru the year.

That's the best and worst year in my life maybe? But the incident teach me a lot by the way.

Standing by the edge and choose to give it a jump.

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Today is the last day of "break".

I'm giving up on something not belong to me.

Walk away from complicated issue.

Marisa Peer told me. I'm the best of myself. 

Whatever words you told yourselves, will bring a big affect on mind. 

Always link your target with pleasure and pain. & you'll willing to attached more if the item give you a big pleasure to complete it ; you will walk away if the item give you enough of pain.


Lets focus on what I suppose to focus bah~






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