Friday, October 30, 2009

人生的另一个阶段


到了,是时候了。

很快的,我们会不认识对方。

很快的,我们会不再联络。

虽然很多时候,我们都说不会忘记对方,会回来聚一聚。

可是到时候又会有多少人出席呢? 真的不懂。。

五年了,其实我没有想过会有这样的一天,也没有期待过。。

从不认识到认识,从陌生到朋友,从敌人到好朋友,从恨到爱。。

全部在这五年里培养出来,可是今天却告诉我们,要有心里准备 这些东西开始离开了。。

出国的出国,做工的做工,读书的读书。。

东奔西跑,要如何见面?

朋友们,真的是时候说再见了。。。

人生很复杂,就算不舍得,还是的分开。

平时冷酷的我,今天真的觉得不舒服,不快乐。其实应该说 “我不舍得”

陪了我五年的朋友,三年的朋友,一年的朋友。。 我真的很需要在这里好好的说声 “谢谢”

我不会哭,可是在这一刻的我,真的爱你们。

因为朋友真的很重要。




p.s wish all the best to my friends and Good luck for SPM..
God Bless Us :p

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

爱情? 没有了







现在的我不爱听所谓的爱情歌,很闷也开始觉得没有意思。

听一些可以让自己快乐的歌,对我来说会比较有意义。

我们听歌时,只会判断那首歌好不好听,而没有去体会当时作曲的人用
了多少的心思在那首歌身上。

我真的恋上 方大同的歌声与音乐。。

他让我不再那么的坚持,他让我发现原来世界上除了爱情,还有其他许许
多多的事情等着我来面对。

“情” 与 “痛” 不在我的选择中。。

虽然偶而会孤单,可是我都可以开心的笑。

Form 5 Prom, 我决定带小过我两年的 [Ding Ding, Yao Yao, Benjamin, Chi Foong]
去见识见识。

人家带恋人,我带学弟,厉害吧。。

其实时因为我不懂要带谁,所以还是选择带可爱的学弟们。。
跟他们一起一定会快乐吧。。 因为他们真的可以让人家很开心 =]



很快的,我就可以带着一帮人去 “show show"。。 哈哈,看下我带学弟的
power。 哇哈哈!! =p .

我带的全部时男生诶,没有女生。。 惨!


我的命水就是这样 ><"

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有些东西只要用一把火烧了,就可能真的再也不会出现。
所以,我也很彻底的把它给烧了

不该留的,我不会把它留下。
不该在的,我也不会让它出现。。

我的生命由我自己做主,
我说美就是美,没人可以决定我的人生路程。。


现在的我,不想再讨好人,我没跟你说话。。不是我讨厌你,
是我不想说话。。 我不是要为任何人而活?

你不过是我人生的路人。。
我不是为任何人制造,懂吗?



Saturday, October 24, 2009

Enjoy.. My crazy and happy life

由于最近都恋上方大同的歌,所以得空时,他的歌声总会陪伴着我。

他的歌对我来说很有意思。。 大家可以试试看 “南音” -- 方大同。

快得来又有自己得风格。。Credit From Cheng Fai.


这几天生活都很快乐也很悲伤。。

舅舅去世了,当棺材关上那一刻,我的眼泪没有掉下。。 告诉自己是时候坚强了?

不愿意看其他人的眼泪,也没有安慰妈妈。

冷酷的送了舅舅最后一程。

原因:爸爸说 [就因为你哭,人家也因为看到你哭而哭]


这几天我的 schedule 也算是很满。。

手机也没什么去管,只是有跟Mr. J联络。 =]

昨天,我好像看到我的ex[Leng Kiat] 在leisure mall, 可是又好像不是,所以就没有打招呼了。

和他,总算可以做回很废的朋友了。 哈哈! 因为我完全放下了=]

两个人也开始联络了。

昨天的行程是
Yee Mun's house --> KFC --> School --> Challenger [Badminton] --> Wong Kok --> Home

奇迹的是,开始有读书的动静了哦。 =]
而那些不好的回忆好像完全没有行踪了。


今天我又要去church 了,可能是那里给了我改变,我开始 快乐 了=]
至少我对宗教在也没有以前的那分恐惧与拒绝了。

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Flash back


其实很累,开始觉得不想长大。。

随着年龄的增长,开始明白越来越多东西。

而让人伤害的%就越容易。

其实早就该放手的我,一时真的不明白为何那么固执。

如果你问我现在最想要的是什么,我希望是快乐。。

我从来就不爱花心思在那些不值得的人身上。

所以,每当受到伤害我也比较容易放得开。

然而,这次的我好像真的受到了教训。 =]


人总是要跌倒才会成长,可是我讨厌跌倒,

因为这所谓的跌倒不是皮外伤,而是痛在心里。

可是,在这段时间里,我印证了他的一句话 ” 在这世上活着的人,没有一个人因为没了另一个人而活不下
去“

我体会到了,也懂了。

他教会了我超多东西。 一开始不明白的我,也因为他的离开而开始明白与接受。

当他说爱我那一刻,我就懂我们会分开。
当他说想我那一刻,我就明白不会长久。

很多东西,是因为我们不肯去面对,不肯去了解。
所以,受伤了才懂得自爱。


虽然说,这次的我跌的很伤,很重。
可是,我真的要谢谢他。

因为他让我知道我身边的朋友有多么的在乎我,

妈妈有多疼我,哥哥有多傻,爸爸有多可爱。


也因为他的离开,让我印证了。。。

爱不是大完,
爱不是全部,
人生不只是爱。。

真的快乐?

应该保持笑容还是露出真面目?

没人可以给答案。。

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Exams Make me crazy

Everyday need to face the exam paper...

Stress to the Maximum.

These few day I keep on flash back what I did and All those relationship I had before.

Suddenly feel that I changed a lot, because first time my status is single and some more can stay until 4-5 months .

Not bad for me.

Yesterday I had a bad dream.. Seriously The dream is not that scary but He appears in my dream.

So I put it as " bad dream".


Maybe I just too stress or what?!

I never study and I feel lazy.


Can I have a rest? sigh...

Yiruma -- Kiss The Rain

Relax .. Relax

Monday, October 19, 2009

可怜?

刚刚 Yeu Song 在 Facebook 和我们分享了一个很有价值的 video 。

看了以后,就会发觉我们人类真的很不自足。

当我们得到越多时,就想得到更多。

“贪” 这个字在每个人的心里燃烧。

我们有手有脚,可是总是嫌那个不够。。。。这个不足。

然而,那些比我们凄惨百倍的人却半句怨言也没有说过。

你们有听过 “no arms, no legs, no worries" 吗?


世界上,有个没脚没手的人,可是他没有放弃过。

他比我们这些正常人还要成功,他到世界各地告诉人们,比起他来说。。他们有多么的幸福。

比起一个残废人士来说,我们有多么的失败?

幸福其实并不难写,是看你愿不愿意用心去体会。。


我们分手了,就想死的。。 可是他根本没有机会谈恋爱

我们学习游泳就说难,可是他一个没手没脚的人在游泳诶?!



哭。。 眼泪。。 对人类来说,真的那么懦弱吗?

还是, 人类本来就是不懂的珍惜呢?



我和我的另一半分开了那么久,我还是放不下。

是因为我自己真的被伤害了还是太过坚持?


每个人生都要度过的事。。 为何就要那么复杂呢?
不如把它简单化吧 =]

Saturday, October 17, 2009

屁 啦

我不想批评也不想打断你们的计划。

可是,我真的觉得你们的计划越来越乱了。

乱得好像垃圾一样。

钱不够,人太乱。。 本来属于我们form 5 得回忆,变得好像什么垃圾人都可以进入一样。

如果一开始知道自己能力有限的话,就不要拿苦来辛。

可能其他人不会有意见,说真的我也懒得跟你们说,因为你们只会找那些 “高级”人类商量,而我们? 你们只会叫人 买买买 。。。 看到都sienz。



你们这样的态度,我宁愿等我那帮死党去了你们所为的 prom 以后,我才和她们去clubbing.. 这样我会觉得更有 “回忆”


我本来什么都不想说,可是你们在facebook tag 人,没关系,tag 什么人这才是重点。。写什么东西也是重点,既然这都不属于我们form 5 的prom, 干吗我要浪费金钱与时间。。

我从来不会因为别人投诉而投诉
, 可是你们的所谓的计划,真的看到人都肚烂。


全部都是亲眼看到,不要告诉我,我误会了,因为你们从来没有跟我们商量过,也不在乎我们是否误会。 只懂的叫人买买买。。 就算我误会,也是应该的。

误会不是我制造的,是你们从来没有给解释。

误会了才赶紧解释,会不会很屁股啊?


商量? 去找你们的 ah head 说话吧。。


本来属于我们的美好回忆,变得 。。。 没有价值。



算了,我也只能把它看成普通的再也不能普通的平凡prom 。。


不是投诉,是告诉朋友们,我不去了,等你们开心以后,我再去找你们去clubbing 吧。



就让属于你们这圈子的人去快乐吧。 和你们我一点也不觉的快乐。
很抱歉。



反正,她们从来也不respect 我们,我也不会在乎她们。。
我发觉我也在浪费时间写这所谓的屁股post.

Friday, October 16, 2009

I never ==

I never said that I thin.. But I know I just in a normal size.

That's it. I know my arm is big, because Of sports [badminton]

Sorry, That is not my fault, I just want to be healthy.

I don't mind to let people said I fat, Because however I fat, I still happy what.. I'm healthy enough.

U can said I fat, But Don't ask me why.. Please..

Because i don't know how to answer you.. Did you know?

我不是为你制造
, get what I mean?

Sports~~ sports~~

Break my record, 2 days never update.

Today, I should update for my friends... A Big Gang Family!

We went to Mountain climbing and badminton..

Mountain climbing I not that enjoy, because very tired.

I just climb til level 2, I gave up.

About 1 or 2 years never go to Mountain climbing..

We separate to two group,
The "cha" one is -- Me, Ngar Mun, Yee Mun and Fishy!
The "pro" one is -- Kiet eie, Eu jin, Steven, Kevin, marcus, Woon Yin and Ding!

After that, Cheng Fai join us in 叹茶屋
We ate a lot, have fun a lot.

Then Continue to Our COURT... BADMINTON TIME!!!!!!!

I called Mr Leong to Join us from the start, but he wasn't free, but at last he came and played with us.. Damn nice!!

So lucky that I win him one set, but overall still lose, of course =]
He is a good player~
I will invite him next time.

So today have 10 People Mountain climbing, 11 People went to 叹茶屋 and 9 People went to played badminton... :)

We are Happy Family!~ =]

Thx for Michael, Your Driving skill is good~

Photo will upload soon =] yeah!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Can you feel my words?

人生无常。 到这种年纪就要开始承受亲人离开的事实。

妈妈戴着黑眼镜,告诉我,舅舅已经是救不了。

只是等待死神来带他走;

他的身体动不了,眼睛开不到, 眼泪只会往下流。

他就好像戏里看到一样,只要一拔掉那条喉,他的生命就会结束。

生命指数是零。 他就像半个死人一样。

身上插满了管子。 要抵抗也抵抗不了。

妈妈哭了,我的眼泪也模糊了我的视线。

总是不懂,好人为何都早走。。

原来等待亲人离开是最痛苦的。。 你要看着他的生命慢慢的没有。

他已经没有知觉了,就算他的身体还在又如何? 就算他的心还在跳动又如何?

他已经没有生存的迹象了。。。



原来当你长的越大时,你所知道的东西就会越多。。

你的眼泪就会越来越容易掉下。。



人的命运,反复无常。。 根本不可能在我们预料之中。。


他不是死人,他是一个等待着死的死人。。

一条喉。。。 可以决定他的生死。。

Monday, October 12, 2009

适者生存,不适者淘汰


Everyone have their own world.

Don't try to change their world without their permission or because you are their lover.

because WE don't have the right.

You love him, So accept his attitude.

You can't accept, choose to leave.

He love you, So he should accept your attitude.

If he can't, Please ask him to leave.




Don't be blind in love. 受过的教训,要反省,要学好。
He leave me because He can't accept my attitude.
I cried because I accept what he did.
I scold him because I feel he is terrible.
We broke up because We are different WORLD.
He tried to change me, I refuse, Because he don't have the right.





Love NOT important.



Because of him/her, you lose you mind?
Because of him/her, you kill your self?

WITHOUT of him/her, you are nothing?


How about without your parents?
Think your self
NAH!! THAT IS NOTHING! Out you go


适者生存,不适者淘汰。
还是坚持在原地打转的你,You will get nothing at last.

where it goes

你的真心去了哪?

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Almost everyone having their relationship now.

Congratulation.

T00 bad.. I still single..

Only can see people sweet sweet lo~

But I still can laugh out loud.

Relationship not ngam me.

I contact with my step brother again.

FuiiYoo... Long time no chat.. suddenly he msn me.. and talk talk talk lo.

wa, already few years we nvr contact I think.

After I broke up with my first ex, I already never meet them...

人啊,结婚又离婚。有满月又有丧礼。

真的不知道活来干吗。。。

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Badminton day


Me and My badminton partner lo. Two organizer.



Resting. Watching them Playing.



My Xue Di. Wish him PMR good luck . [Stupid action]




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Hmm, Yesterday played badminton again.

Release stress.

Yesterday everyone in a bad mood.[ I think only]

Because all of us played very well yesterday.

Friday, October 9, 2009

Two days never update

LOL, Today quite a bad day?

I mean during school time la..

First, Today not really in mood. Not enough sleep.

Second, Yuniko Chan Fall downed because of me =.=" But haven die yet. [ Have to said SORRY]
But she still can played CS til shout here and there, sure no problem ady.

Third, Miss Annabell and Mr Yew argued =.=" Miss Annabell went to our class and started to cried.

Fourth, Miss Chair angry with Miss Annabell. But I don't know what happened at last, Because I went back Lynus's home already.

Fifth, I feel like dropping Perdagangan..

Today, School day = Tired + so many surprise..

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

歌曲很重要


最近,我都没有什么想写的。

突然,我打开了一首歌 “原来我最爱的人是你不是他”

感情空白的我,说真的有点闷。

可是不想结束单身生活的我,也只好忍耐孤独。

其实,也没有我想像的那么可怜吧。

每天都有人陪我SKYPE, SMS, 讲电话。

其实,已经不错了。

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今天啊,我的好姐妹 leou gyn 考车,

失败了, 再接再力, 做人总是有失败的时候.

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说真的,

我蛮开心的, 因为老师没有打电话给我的妈妈.

她只是打电话给我而已,

好像要包庇我, 而且保护我, 蛮甜的啦.

我告诉她, 我是不会去学校的, 我要休息一天,

她还叫我 take care, 只要记得明天要来学校就好了.

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说真的, 今天我没去学校, 一点也不觉得内疚.

我不是每次都不去学校的人.

在适当的时候 做适当的东西. 我从来都是这样.

而且, 我总是会回报一下我的精神嘛.

重点 : 爸爸难得可以让我不去学校. " 庆祝"

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学校这几天都发生了一些我不觉得是 "好事情" 的东西.

而且, 我的脾气这几天是超爆的.... 好自为之咯.

尽量就不要惹我, 我还是可以很好的.

再这样气下去, 爆血管了.

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Tuesday, October 6, 2009

你想死吗?

想死的话,现在就来惹我!!

真的让我吃不消

怎么了? 为什么?

学校最近所发生的事情真的让我很吃不消。

真的真的快疯了。。。。。。!!!!

好想死!

Monday, October 5, 2009

Crazy Night with friends

Okay, Last Saturday I went to Pui Yee's house.
For mooncake festival..
Have Fun =]



Serious type


Where am I? They cover me!!



Sebastian try to Kill me



Haha!


Me and My Kai sai Lou



LOL



=]



friends YAY



The designer of PIZZA



YAY
!



Busy Busy



Black shirt, Black Pant

Me and My bestie


My son and I

LOL.. Sweet sweet.. hahahaha!!

Can I swearing infront all of U?

Not, I don't feel so.

Seriously, For me, it's just a small matter.

For both of them, Yea, It's a big deal. But for their friends, Seriously, They should not give too much of comment.


And I felt that.. Today. class is too noisy... FUck Whey!

Better just shut up...

Sunday, October 4, 2009

optimistic

Someone teach me a new word today.

He is a emo guy. Seriously!

Hmm.. I quite disappointed about that.. haha!!

I try my best to cheer him up.. Like what I use to did.

But this time, I felt the different feeling..

Don't know how to said.

Hmmm..................... anyway, wish him luck then..

He will nvr see this post anyway.. haha~

Happy?

Oh Yes!

Tonight feel so warm [Leou Gyn said that]

Damn Crazy LoL

Happy moon Cake Festival Lo~

Friday, October 2, 2009

听到了孩子哭泣声吗?


How Many People Died on Wednesday?! Earthquake.Tsunami.Big Float

Izit Someone trying to stole back everything from us?

Human is lucky to live in this earth.

Last time, everywhere was natural and nice.


But now?
Earth is crying now.

I feel like "he/she" is going to stole back everything from us.


Not in one time, but slowly We will lost everything.

Especially the love one - Our family.


How many people crying on Wednesday?

How many people leave their family and walk to heaven and hell?


Yes, We can have no feeling.


None of our business what.

But Lets see.
Every country is having their problem right now.

Malaysia? Won't save forever.

Not to curse Malaysia.

But, as you know. God's decision is fair enough.


One day, something will happened to us too.


Because of human's selfishness.

That is the reason why "he/she" going to take away all our things..

and At last, we have nothing at all.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Desperate!!

LOL...

Saturday!! Saturday!!

I damn desperate on Saturday!!

It's going to be fun !!


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Today went to Pui Yee's house - tuition

Her fried rice make me become more energy again. ><"

Damn nice.. =] Thx yea

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Reach home around 10.00p.m

need to sleep now
bb

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