我一直认为是我的疏忽而让你离开了人间。





我没有删除过你的任何一张照片。



可是，我也没经常去看它。



因为，这种痛从来没有离开过我。



每次想起你，我的眼泪总是留下。




一年半了，你生病的过程紧紧的贴在我脑海，我送你去医院的时候，你那双用尽全力睁开的双眼，让我永远都记得。   真的对不起， 对不起啊！

Not to promote, but this is the real idol

Who is your idol?

What he did?

and how successful he is?


=) No offence. But try to read this.  No one would sacrifice so much for the world.


Not even myself .


He is Doctor Juesatta.


Click Here.


When you have time, read it. I'm sure you will never regret.



对他，我甘拜下风。

Laugh a little more

I'm sick again.

Within a month, it's the second times.


Actually it's not something special but I dislike the feeling seriously.


The painfulness from inside of the body will kill you.


I hate headache and body pain. But before you get ill, this is the process -_-


I curious the reason of getting sick, as in I'm not someone that always get sick easily.


I realized, I'm getting too hard. Work too hard, Study too hard, Play too hard.


My mum scolded me, since I'm so tired from working and studying why still want to hang out.
And I told her : Mum, I'm having holiday, and I'm like busy than during studies period. I couldn't let my whole holiday just went off like this - Work and Study.


So I still do hang out and plan my working time, study time and hang out time as well.


But maybe I'm always get enough rest and suddenly my body couldn't stand the new life of me.


Yes, I choose it. I choose to be busy. I choose not to think too much.


You know, when the brain is tired, it wouldn't function so much and of course it will cure my emotion.


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recently there are lots of activities that I had join, For example : Clubbing, my friends help me to celebrate birthday! :)

Woon Yin's farewell.

Khalil's Concert!

Stella's Birthday!

Pahang's Trip!

Okay! That's it ! :)


Hoep you guys have fun!

为了什么

我看见身边的女生越变越美， 越变越有气质。

之前看起来普普通通的，现在总是让人眼前一亮。

我很欣赏改变的人，当然是往好方面的。

不改变的，我也和佩服。 因为，身边的人有的改变得超越我的想像。

人因为环境所改变，人事物，权利，威风都是理由。


我有的朋友在比成绩，有的在比金钱。

想想看，我比什么？  学业我不比人好，每次都那么的刚好。

做工也没比别人来的多。

所以？ 我要死了是吗？

荒唐！

Sick

At last...


It came and meet in this morning.


But I never scare of it.


I still decide to go for work.


Just Push myself harder, why the others can do it, I can't?


Just get Panadol before go to work.

听了这首歌，我哭了。

我真的好想好想告诉他这里所有的内容。

这种种 感觉就像要逼着自己笑着来哭。 

她的MV让我几乎奔溃。。。   

Decision

erm, I'm facing some problems recently which is unnecessary for me.


As readers know, I've feed 2 dogs and both of them are my life.


Just as important as my life.


hmm, I think this problem appeared quite sometimes but I do not know how to face it. -_-



My parent keep asking me to choose either one of them of that I no need to be so tired.

Because I need to face my studies and working at the same time.

When I work, my dogs don't really have anyone to bring them to jog, bath for them.


and sometimes, I did feel fed up because after I came back from work, I'm so tired and still I've to bring them to jog and bath for them. It's a must!


But I never give up before. I do not want to choose either one of them because I going to make them stick together.


The one which stay will suffer as well because it going to miss it's partner.


Both of them are actually a good dogs. At least I wouldn't feel lonely when I'm alone in the house.



Aiks I don't know what to do.


Except for keep quite when my parent told me about this, nothing else I can do.


I'm not the only one who says wanna feed a dog. Sometimes, Money isn't help at all..

when you don't even give a little help... Money is the only thing I can ask from you... Sighhhh...

我眼浅

可能真的是我的问题。


我眼泪总是很容易因为它们而掉落。


因为我真的不明白，也无法明白，为什么就是有人要伤害它们？


为什么它们本来是人类的好朋友，可是还是有人会愿意去伤害它们？


除非它有病，否者我总是不相信它们会攻击人。



它们有生命的，有眼睛，有手脚的。 会帮你看家，会疼你，无论你如何骂它，它都不会反抗你。



它甚至比人类还要来得善良。



可是为什么？    为什么你们就是不可以那那么多一点点的良心和同情心？

你们认为人类真的是世上最伟大的是吗？



我告诉你们，当你伤害它们的那一刹那，你已经没资格被称为 " 人类”。

因为人类最基本的爱心，你已失去。



对我而言，你禽兽都不如！！！！

Break

Everyday working is tiring for everyone.


and It makes me feel a little bit of breathless somehow.


Accountant: The work that I get a little bit complicated than the others, but because I will be learning this in the future so that why.


Kumon: The children are not easy to take care as well, you always need to calm down yourself when talking to them.. anyway, hard to explain.



It wont feel stress but headache.


and some more I need to study, that why, I left one month to study.


Work and Study seriously Tired man.


and I realized I need someone to talk to, but there is no one.


Maybe I just need sometimes,  to seriously make myself recover and stop this stupid attitude.



Today I send a msg to my boss and request for rest. Thanks god, she approved, but somehow I still need to go back for training at 10pm.


The next day I still need to go back accountant office to continue my work, as in there is still ton of papers to let me settle.

Life Life Life.
一直用忙来麻醉自己原来只会让自己变得麻木与愚笨。

原来，我还是。。还没有过去。。。



Today, I helped my mum to clean the house and take care the dogs as well..

Need to study again in night time.




Hope tomorrow... I'm gonna enjoy it...
actually I quite worry... Clubbing isn't my flavor.


Just have a try... maybe...

:(

The application shows that I'm 100% Lucky today.


But I hurt myself today >.<" Aiks...






Still the same.... careless.

I'm wondering as well.

Look back to my previous post and recent post.



wooo, so different.



Did I change?


Where is Jane Lim Sook Yee?




I'm find out that She is scared and she hide somewhere that even I also couldn't find it.



She is tired, or maybe she shouldn't come out anymore.




Thanks for letting me know, recently, This is so not me.


I'm tired of being the weak one but feel so fake for being the strong one.



hmmm... so Am I lost? XD









In this moment I don't care anymore.

Problems come then settle.
about myself- Haven die then is alright..

No time

Start my second jobs, and Seriously I've no extra time  for this time. 

I feel so tired, because both jobs are about NUMBERS.

 

haha! 

Anyway, I enjoy my life right now. 

and my so called first time clubbing date is fixed and it's going to be success! :D Hell yea!

Let's party rocks!

Humanity

when there is something you never expect happen and it happened, you will feel unlucky.

Unlucky. How to define it? 

1. Subjected to or marked by misfortune.

2. Resulting or likely to result in misfortune; inauspicious.

There are always some UNLUCKY follow us. 

Today is 1st of July,

I don't care whatever shit happened before this, I gonna beat it down.

I don't care how hard it is, I gonna make it.

It's just a process.

I never feel down when I face so many problems recently.

and I settle it successfully.

No matter how hard it is.

The first thing to settle - my emotional.

I realized after I've made my mind clear, I can settle everything smoothly.

and I'm glad for being myself right now.

About the other things that will cause me emotional, I left it.

Because I know what is much more important for me :)

Sorry that I've to resit the paper. But I never complain.

Because I know I can make it.

and I will start my second job start from tomorrow :) 

Kumon: Monday and Thursday 5-11pm.

Accountant: Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday 8.30am-5.30pm.

oh yeah, Next friday I'm having holiday, you know why?

it's 6 of July. :) going to celebrate with my friends :)

 My day is coming.

No matter how bad it is. I gonna change it good.

Life is depend on me, not the others.