So I putted my defense up.

Stress for weeks, This life is just the same like others.

Everyone wants to be unique but most of us can't. Even those successful one went on the same path( before or currently)


How to define as success?

Most of us's theory - Rich, Richest. Money. A lot lot lots of Money.

Those who really make a lot of sacrificed to the world, we DON'T really care about it.

For example, your dream is - went to Africa and be a volunteer to help them up. But the main point- What's the salary, is this going to your whole life? Are you going to stay there forever? How about your family, your work life ? Are you going to abandon them down and just walk away ?   There is only 1 person can do that in 100 people. It's a good and meaningful job. But when you abandon all these, You just being irresponsibility in other way.


Because in our life, we are not alone, we are not the only person need to be responsibility to our own life. We are participate in each others life. Our family, Our pets, Our lover, Our friends.


Sometimes, when I look around the people, some friends went insane to get money, some friends don't know whats the path they going to get. Some, lost in the path. But, I still meet some normal one, get thing when they should and work hard on it.


I'm not being lazy, I got Firm to write on In civil But I don't want my whole life to be a worker of life. I don't want to over stress and over relax.


I clear where my path is, and When I should get it. I know what is my future and my aim.

But sometimes, I just can't denied that I being confuse of (meaning of life)

  

Money can get beauty

But Money can't get color of life.

No or Yay?

My effort.

Everyone do their best in their relationship, friendship and Families.

Although some might not, But I've tired my best, even there have some problems sometimes, But I always thought people will be appreciate what I did.


I can be jokes in front of you, I can be maid or even an angel for you.

But Don't take me for granted.  I respect anyone who respect me. I love anyone who love me.

But I know in some kind of relationship, The longer you stay, the faded it will be.
I told many guys " never stop chasing a girl" even she had belongs to you.
No doubt, in this world, there a lots of girls being sacrificed for guys.... (same goes to guys)


I will sacrificed for you as well, but I realized The more I sacrificed for you, the more you take me for granted. Don't ever try to do that.  


Just to remind you, once I turn away, I will never come back.
Even though I will regret, Even I think about you sometimes, But I know what I want. I choose to live better or happier. People always says that It's hard to continue chasing but It's harder to give up.




Suffer or Giving up?
I choose giving up. Time will cure me and I will be sun shine soon or later.
This is life, It keeps on tik tok tik tok. Time flies. Those people I think I cant live without has gone and I'm still stand strong over here. It proves that Without anyone, I'm still alive.




* I told you never left me alone like that. You promised me You will never do it again. But you break the promise. My tears almost drop down but You KNOW WAD? I smile and facing it. See you!

just to come back

I've  left my blog quite sometimes. From the last time of me, I almost update every 24 hours but right now, even a month I might just busy my stuff without come back to my own world.  Everyone complaining the exam period too peak for this semester but no doubt, we still have to face it.

Just like we say: Life goes on, no matter how hard it is, still have to go thru it . It's kinda boring sometime. The level of exam for this semester is quite high I mean the question is quite tricky and hard. Even the top ten also complaining that It's not easy, so you can imagine----How about my result?!

In a sem, we have 6 subjects, For me, it's too much because what i seriously in reading is only 4 subjects. That why the CERT of nottingham is Quite valuable for my future, perhaps. :) But I don't really depend on my Study, I do have done some investment and work as well. I do not want to be THAT BORING sometimes, as in I know I'm not good in study and that why I try to figure another way for myself, trying to find my own strength.


After I have started my carrier in Kumon, I've realized that kids isn't that "expendables", but they might kill you once but not twice, their attitude almost the same is just depend on the level of being patience. Of course, my level of patience is getting higher, thanks to them for getting me this experience.  Not only that, Thanks to Carmen for introduce me this work :) although she left few months ago. :)


Tomorrow is my last paper which I've not prepare anything right now, I mean not even read a single word from that subject. Hell yea, I do not know what can I face this paper but I do not want to stress my self too hard. :) Life still goes on right? I just read whenever I feel so, no more memorize but just understanding :)

Lets see what can I write for tomorrow paper. :D